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[08 Mar 2006|11:28am] So my birthday is two weeks from yesterday. I made a wishlist of stuff, if anyone wants to buy me anything for my birthday, because Christmas didn't really cut it this year, and there's still stuff I need. If it comes late, due to shipping, I'll still be more than ecstatic to have gotten anything, and if nothing comes at all, I'll understand. Under the cut is the link, and my mailing address. <3 ( Read more... ) 2 Saviors || Will You Catch Me?

[28 Nov 2005|10:40pm] This is the end for a little while. Ich liebe dich. Ya lyublyu vas. I love you all. 3 Saviors || Will You Catch Me?

Ich weiß nicht [11 Nov 2005|04:51pm] [ mood | contemplative ] Что, если солнце никогда не повышается снова? Что, если звезды никогда не сияют? Я не хочу быть сказанным. Я только хочу быть проведенным(поддержанным). Не спросите меня больше, потому что я не знаю. Will You Catch Me?

[07 Nov 2005|08:44pm] [ mood | bitter ] A kiss, a flicker in your eyes, a lie. You're just another way to pretend: the pill I take to forget it all. 1 Savior || Will You Catch Me?

experimental [23 Oct 2005|02:19pm] Violent Mood Swings I hate you. Fuck you, you life-stealing whore. I hate you, I hate you, don't go. Please. I'm so sorry; it's all my fault. I was never good enough; I always fuck up. I'm so fucking sorry. Please don't leave me, you're all I fucking have in this world. I need you. I love you. I bleed you. You're everything to me, my beautiful. My only. Without you, there aren't reasons left to find. Fuck you. Why don't you want me anymore? I gave you everything I had. I did everything I could to fucking make you happy. Am I not good enough for you? Didn’t I make you smile? Didn't Ikiss you with all the warmth inside my soul? Didn't I worship you? All I ever wanted was you. You didn't ever love me, did you? You were my sunshine, my devotchka, my beautiful little girl who got away. I've fucked up in all the worst of ways, I know, but I would give everything I've ever owned or loved and all the blood inside of my veins for just one more chance to be near you. With just one touch, just one glance, you complete me. My dawning angel: my day star. You are the only thing worth living for. I'll kill myself for you. You cold-hearted bitch: you worthless slut. I'll kill you if I can't have you. Anathema Darling, I sold my soul For unrequited dreams and false hope. Sugar, I needed you for life. I needed your lies to feel relief From the stress you gave to me. Baby, you fucked me up. You and your lies of Heaven. My innocent angel: You were candy-coated lips and tiny hands. I want to hold you. My earthly goddess: You were tender skin and child-like hips. I want to touch you. My deceitful queen: You were junkie eyes and a sadistic smile. I want to hate you. My virginal sinner: You were upturned breasts and a kiss like fire. I want to fuck you. 1 Savior || Will You Catch Me?

[07 Oct 2005|09:05am] [ mood | bored ] [ music | people talking loudly around be ] Bored as fuck and at school. Here I am now, entertain me. 2 Saviors || Will You Catch Me?

lighted fools the way too dusty death [14 Sep 2005|06:25pm] [ mood | restless ] I'm on a train, but there's no one at the helm. And there's a demon in my brain, who starts to overwhelm And there it goes, my last chance for peace You lay me down, but I get no release And I say, I try to keep awake I try to swim beneath I try to keep awake But I, I can feel this narcolepsy slide Into another nightmare And there's a demon in my head who starts to play A nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday And I hold my breath till it's more than I can take And I close my eyes and dream that I'm awake I try to keep awake... I try to keep awake... I try to keep awake, but I I can feel this narcolepsy slide Into another nightmare I read dead Russian authors volumes at a time I write everything down, except what's on my mind 'Cause my greatest fear is that sucking sound And then I know that I will never get back out And there's a bone in my hand that connects to a drink In a crowded room where the glasses clink And I'll buy you a beer, and we'll drink it deep Because that keeps me from falling asleep How'd you like to be alone and drowning? How'd you like to be alone and drowning? How'd you like to be alone and drowning? Still I find this narcolepsy slide slide, Into another nightmare Keep awake... Keep awake... Keep awake... Still I find this narcolepsy slides... 1 Savior || Will You Catch Me?

not a real entry [28 Jul 2005|08:47pm] echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears. my favourite dreams of you still wash ashore, scraping through my head, until I don't want to sleep anymore. you make this all go away; you make this all go away. i'm down to just one thing, and i'm starting to scare myself. Obsession. Love, lust, addiction, disorder. I can't seem to let go, or maybe it won't let go of me. everywhere i go, you're all i see. just a fading fucking reminder of who i used to be. 4 Saviors || Will You Catch Me?

[21 Jul 2005|01:27pm] [ mood | frustrated ] I want to shoot myself in the face to Two of Hearts by Stacy Q. And the moral of the story is fuck you. 1 Savior || Will You Catch Me?

Here you go, whore. [01 Jul 2005|01:36pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | The "Corinne is a psycho bitch" song ] Here's your proof. Obviously, I didn't steal your fucking photobucket account. Kthxdie. 1 Savior || Will You Catch Me?

death lotion [15 Jun 2005|02:54pm] [ mood | amused ] panteraman02: i had a dream with you in it last night panteraman02: it was weird panteraman02: lol panteraman02: that's why i bugged you today jessicka christ: tell me what happened! panteraman02: lol panteraman02: its dumb panteraman02: i'll set it up first panteraman02: it starts off with me semi-sleeping on the bed panteraman02: the bathroom door opens (bathroom door is in the bedroom) and you walk out in a towel, just out of the shower i guess panteraman02: kl panteraman02: *k panteraman02: so i wake up from the closing of the door panteraman02: i look over panteraman02: and you are lotioning yourself jessicka christ: haha panteraman02: and I'm like "hi" and you are like "mmm death lotion" jessicka christ: hahaha panteraman02: and I'm like, "death lotion?" panteraman02: and you're like "yep, death lotion" panteraman02: and I'm like "what the HELL is death lotion?" panteraman02: and you are like "you know, DEATH LOTION" panteraman02: and i'm like "yeah, but what IS it" panteraman02: and then your towel falls off panteraman02: i gape panteraman02: and then you start rubbing it somewhere else panteraman02: and you're like "it is lotion, with a poison in it" panteraman02: me "why are you rubbing it all OVER!" panteraman02: you "it doesn't affect me silly" panteraman02: so i say "so let me get this straight, you have some special power X-men lotion that kills people, you are rubbing it all over your body, but you are immune to it?" panteraman02: and you are like "pretty much" panteraman02: and i'm like "bullshit" panteraman02: you squirt it at me and i'm all like "AHHHHH!!!!!!!" <-- girl scream panteraman02: and then you go panteraman02: "HAHAHHA JUST KIDDING MORON" and you tackle me for some snuggles and we go to sleep 1 Savior || Will You Catch Me?

[12 Jun 2005|03:46pm] [ mood | bored ] Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||||||||||| 60% Stability || 10% Orderliness |||||| 26% Altruism |||||||||||||||||| 76% Interdependence |||||||||||| 50% Intellectual |||||||||||| 50% Mystical |||||| 30% Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Religious |||||||||| 36% Hedonism |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Materialism |||||||||||||||| 63% Narcissism |||| 16% Adventurousness |||||||||||| 50% Work ethic |||||||||||| 43% Self absorbed |||||||||||| 50% Conflict seeking |||| 16% Need to dominate |||||||||| 36% Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Avoidant |||||||||||| 43% Anti-authority |||||||||||| 50% Wealth |||||| 23% Dependency |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Change averse |||||||||||||| 56% Cautiousness |||||||||||| 43% Individuality |||||||||||||| 56% Sexuality |||||||||||| 43% Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 50% Physical security |||||||||||||||||| 76% Physical Fitness || 10% Histrionic |||||||||||||| 56% Paranoia |||||| 30% Vanity |||||||||||| 50% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Female cliche |||||||||||| 50% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com trait snapshot: craves attention, messy, open, rash, irritable, likes large parties, low self control, weird, fragile, does not like to be alone, emotionally sensitive, worrying, depressed, heart over mind, does not respect authority, dependent, not rule conscious, not good at saving money, more interested in relationships than intellectual pursuits, likes to fit in, very social, frequently second guesses self, phobic, suspicious, not careful, outgoing, vain, compassionate, aggressive, likes to make fun, hates to lose 1 Savior || Will You Catch Me?

OMGJOIN<3 [14 May 2005|11:11pm] _comfort_zone_ 1 Savior || Will You Catch Me?

friends only, bitch [17 Aug 2004|02:13pm] blah, blah, blah, comment to be added. 4 Saviors || Will You Catch Me?

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